Movies Schmovies

Sometimes I'm embarassed to admit which movies I love, are like, top faves and all-but really? We all have our guilty pleasures, our little embarassing skeletons....so here they go-in not a whole lot of order, they're bound to be dorky and inconceivable to anyone else but whatevs yo, that's how i roll!

Okay so does anyone else (yes i know i'm talking to no one) have a crush on the movie StepBrothers? It's like my favorite movie ever even though it's completely stupid and says a lot of F words-just thinking about it makes me smile, so it's like a bright little ray of sunshine in my day to think "you have to call me Dragon".
So a sentimental favorite is Dumb & Dumber, and so far i've only ever met one girl who likes it as much as i do. Guys like it, which kinda isn't a compliment, lol.
Nacho Libre--come ON-Jack Black, Mexican Accent and Tight Pants??!? How can anyone not like that movie?
Phantom of the Opera-okay Emmy Rossum is kinda annoying, but she does alright and Raoul?! Hotness!
Oh Brother Where Art Thou? LOVE IT-George Clooney was never attractive to me until he did that, the acting is fabulous as well as the story
Okay here come the musicals-Hairspray, Sound of Music, Singin in the Rain, Seven Brides for Seven Brothers, My Fair Lady, ummmmm there are others but i can't think of them
Cinderella-i dont know why but I think it's because of the songs and it was one of Rosie's first favorite movies
Selena-it's like, my soundtrack lol
Napoleon Dynamite-"this is pretty much the worst movie ever made"

okay i can't think of the other ones because people are in my office bugging me. peace out.

Tears In Heaven

"Would you hold my hand, if I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand, if I saw you in heaven?"

What to say right now? My life has been a tumultuous ride the last few months. I'm pretty sure that yesterday I lost my best friend of 17 years. Over poop. Long story, but I guess I just didn't see my life turning out this way-well i shouldn't say "turning out", i'm young, in 50 years I'll be saying the same tho! :)
Well, so let's see--Rosie sniffed my hair the other day and said "your hair smells like.... spiderwebs!".... funny kid. Jack has been running around in his "cowbee boots" like, all day/night-it's the quintessential lil boy look-cowboy boots, diaper and superman shirt-if he could find the cape it would include that, so far he's had to make do with his pastel baby blanket for a cape. Priceless.
I am SO ready for spring. I was thinking i was ready for summer, but i've gotta lose like, at least 30lbs--fall and winter are much kinder to me, wardrobe wise, lol.

Valentines Schmalentines

So, if you consider Vday a person, i've had one of those-but if you consider it like, a holiday or special occasion, i've really not had one so far. My bday falls so close that it kinda gets lumped together, which is funny because it's not THAT close. Anyway. Life is difficult right now. Anytime I get close to my period, i start to feel unbelievable pressure and fear of the unknown. Things start to look bleak and i lose perspective. It's amazing how real those emotions can feel, how real they are at times and then the difference a week makes, lol!
Funny stuff from this week: I took jacks socks off and he mumbled something about having "tuff in feet" (fuzzies from black socks, he's such a clean freak!), so i started cleaning them out and he protested! He said "no clean out mama, keep feet warm"!!! So cute.
Rosie draws all the time-lately she's really into skeletons, so now, anything we draw is a person, and then a skeleton inside of them-thanks SchoolHouse Rock! Actually, I'm really curious what other 4 yr olds draw, she's always surprising me with stuff she comes up with-yesterday there was a fridge with a bunch of food, a tomato and a kid standing in front of it, all of it i recognized immediately, but i didn't really think that was something a kid would draw-lo and behold, that's what it was!
Some new things, Jack is far less cuddly than he was a month ago :( He's getting to that rough-house, stinkery boy age. It makes me sad because i miss my little love-he was the sweetest, most gentle and huggy kid and now he follows me around saying "I TACKLE you!", etc. Rosie has started being incredibly defiant, ALL the time. It's maddening, she'll either ignore me, or whip her head around and say "WHAT!!!!" in a SNOTTY way, i swear she's like 15! Not sure yet how to solve that, because then i snap back at her and say "Don't you talk to me like that, you speak kindly to mama!!" and no, i don't say that in a kind way, lol. I did have an interesting conversation this week which really resonated with me--"Nothing destroys a child more than hypocrisy". Think about it.

Growing Pains

So last night, I got a call from Ro-she wanted to tell me her idea, which was "for me and daddy and you and jack to all go to the 'fittier' together"(movie theater). Well, apparently she had called earlier and i didn't get the voice mail she left until later that night. When i heard it, almost everything inside me wanted to take away the last 6 months, to go back to my marriage and home and the way our life was before. It was her little 4 year old voice, prompted by her dad, calling to tell me goodnight... except that she started to cry. i could hear her little sobs and sniffles, while she tried to stutter through what he was trying to tell her to say-just listening to that, hearing her go from calling to say goodnight to saying "mommy, please when you get this will you just call me because i'm really sad and would you bring me a flower in the morning?" It was the most heartbreaking thing I've heard since.... well since two weeks ago, when she started crying in bed, while we were snuggled up to go to sleep for the night. I've been letter her sleep w/me at least once a night and it was one of the hardest things to watch, her little body shaking and real, grown-up tears flowing from my babys' eyes.
Like I said, it's all i can do to stop everything and just make it all better for her. As a mother, I'd rather it be better for her than myself.